Of Memories and Loneliness

I miss you so much it brings a tear Tangible emptiness you’re not here Days are long nights are dreary Not tired but my heart is weary Arthritic pain a constant companion Feeling lost in a no way out canyon Disturbing thoughts my mind assail Have I really done enough or did I fail Suffering silently not saying much Trusting your maker always in touch Sometimes I just long to see your face Like Paul of old you’ve run your race If you came back what will you see A world filled with pain and endless agony Families driven apart by lust and greed Noble principles a sadly forgotten creed I miss you and the feelings are so emotive So difficult just penning this narrative Reminiscing of how things used to be How little we knew of our family tree I recall us not always seeing eye to eye You so honest just couldn’t tell a lie Your closing argument would always be Mr van Nelson do you really love me Have to smile when I soliloquize Happens often as questions arise What if you could come back today Clear as a bell I can hear you say I can stay here but only for a while Must go back then you’d wave and smile What a thought having you back with no pain But then you’ll have to leave and we’d cry again