Of Love and What Comes After

I love The leaves that fall too silent to the ground, I love When I'm lost and don't want to be found, I love When I dance and my head's spinnin round, I love When you leave and I feel like I've drowned. I love When you hate me so much that it hurts, I love When you push me to ashes and dirts, I love When my eyes are as dry as desserts, I love When I can't seem to manage my blurts. I love When I'm numb and I don't feel a thing, I love When the feel of a bee doesn't sting, I love When I sleep walk from winter to spring, I love When the memories choke like a string but I hate You.