Numb

I am numb, I am invisible, I like this feeling, I am numb, my body feels like a thousand needles are piercing my heart, but I love this part. I am numb, to protect myself, don't you know I am dumb? That's how others have damaged me to the extent that I want to scratch my arm until I can see the marks, so that others who betrayed me can see the darkness inside me and watch me weep. I am calm now, for I am relieved, that my true feelings of so many years of being Silent has done me in. I have border line personality disorder, I can't be helped, all they do is laugh, and ignore me, oh well at least I'm numb.