Numb

The lights remained bright- you were quite fidgety yet relaxed, and as for me; I remained stiff. It was as though sadness, confusion, and hurt took its toll over my body; Only I couldn't react. My body remained numb, wanting to cry and scream but knowing that doing this would only make matters worse. Starring into space, I found myself looking for answers. As if somehow my eyes would gaze upon a word, perhaps even a person who could give me some kind of direction. The answer was there, I knew the solution, but never had the guts to accept it, let alone say it out loud. In result my mouth remained shut. Maybe it wasn't your heart that I was afraid of breaking, but my own. Because it was moments like these where the truth hurt. And I'd much rather the silence over power the painful truth, that was bound to slip through our lips.