What is this numbness of my heart?
This ache that never leaves
And the welcome numb of the forgiven
Pushing by the cliff any though
But finally the though reaches me
My world is swirling in a whirlpool of emotions and thoughts
Swirling like the ecstasy winds above the grass
Everything changing and I clustered
Clustered in a fish bowl with even a plastic castle
Even the rhythm of life or the spark I used to have seem gone
Right now the rhythm is soft not funky anymore
No more shiny fairies in my way
And for a while I miss them but the numbness absorbs me
And then I am falling by the same cliff where I pushed my thoughts
And the fears and terror that washes trough my body gives the welcome to the numbness.