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Why don’t I feel sad …why don’t I sit and cry I am simply in limbo Our lives have changed forever Mum has moved out of her home She couldn’t stay in the house with you no longer there She kept expecting to see you in your armchair or standing by the window I have no tears to cry … Guess I shed them in the weeks before you died After 18 years of helping you both my life is back to being mine I am sure in time I will get used to it But now I simply feel empty and confused Death is a part of the cycle of life I thought it would be easier for me now you are gone But it’s harder than ever 15th March 2015

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Maurice Yvonne

Date: 3/19/2015 10:29:00 AM

It's never easy. A beautiful write. A Fav.

Jan Allison
Date: 3/23/2015 4:51:00 PM

Thanks Armand my lovely friend:-) love and hugs Jan xx

Thomas Martin

Date: 3/18/2015 8:42:00 PM

thanks Jan for sharing this with us. Tom

Jan Allison
Date: 3/19/2015 5:15:00 AM

Thanks for reading Tom:-) Hugs jan xx

Sandra Haight

Date: 3/16/2015 9:27:00 PM

Oh, Jan...so deeply touching and emotional. Yes, it does become more bearable...but it does takes time. What you are experiencing now is exactly how I felt when going through this...emotions are all over the place. You are blessed to have your beautiful poetry to express your feelings. Many hugs from me...Sandra

Jan Allison
Date: 3/17/2015 2:17:00 AM

I don't know where I would be now if I hadn't discovered writing Sandra:-) hugs Jan xx

James Fraser

Date: 3/16/2015 5:21:00 PM

Such a sad piece Jan. It reminds me of losing my brother and father as I didn't release pent up sadness at the time. I'm talking about 1969 & 1976. Since then I've had my moments, and quite recently. You will in time, hugs//James xx

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 6:17:00 PM

Thanks James I am told by hospice it can take weeks, months even years for it to hit home - I make sure I have a tissue with me at all times lol:-) Hugs Jan xx

Liam Mcdaid

Date: 3/16/2015 12:01:00 PM

deeply touching heartfelt pen jan passing you a warm smile with a hug wishing you a blessed beautiful st patricks day dear friend sorry i have not been around much

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 12:03:00 PM

Thanks Liam - life issues get in the way but doesn't stop us from catching up when time allows:-) have a wonderful day:-) Hugs Jan xx

Anna Hopper

Date: 3/16/2015 7:49:00 AM

Lovely, heart breaking, but lovely

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 8:43:00 AM

Thanks so much Anna:-) Hugs jan xx

Paul Callus

Date: 3/16/2015 6:29:00 AM

Mixed emotions that are not that easy to control or subdue. Time and a busy life schedule will both help. Hugs // paul

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 8:42:00 AM

Thanks for those wise words Paul:-) Hugs jan xx

Arthur Vaso

Date: 3/15/2015 11:34:00 PM

Very moving, emotional poem Jan, hugs!

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 1:47:00 AM

Thanks Arthur:-) Hugs Jan xx

Viv Wigley

Date: 3/15/2015 9:07:00 PM

Deeply moving, verse, Jan. I share your sorrow. Having lost half of my family of six already,and finishing work to care form my Mum's last years, I really believed I would get peace as a reward for my efforts, but not so. I've had to really dig deep and unscramble how I feel. In my eyes they've gone on a voyage, and wouldn't want me to sit crying at the docks. They're waiting over the horizon and when I get my ticket, I shall sail with no fear of the waters. Praying for you (with hugs) Viv x

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 1:46:00 AM

Thanks Viv your words make me feel better for reading that:-) Hugs Jan xx

Iris E. S-Lewis

Date: 3/15/2015 7:29:00 PM

Jan, though this conveys sadness and grief; it is also a lovely tribute. You've penned each line from deep love that's everlasting and rare. Blessings and peace.

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 1:45:00 AM

Thanks Iris:-) Hugs Jan xx

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 3/15/2015 6:55:00 PM

this is a very nice one you did ,Jan. PUtting your emotions out there and telling it like it really is after the death of someone that lingered at death's door for so long. I do hope things get a lot easier for you. I KNOW they will in time.

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 1:45:00 AM

I can only hope it will get easier Andrea :-) Hugs Jan xx

Shane Cooper

Date: 3/15/2015 5:44:00 PM

Stay strong my dear friend, the hole in your life will slowly fill with new roles for you to play. And the tears will come eventually. dear Jan take care of yourself. love Shane xxx

Jan Allison
Date: 3/16/2015 1:44:00 AM

Thanks Shane:-) Hugs Jan x

Ilene Bauer

Date: 3/15/2015 12:01:00 PM

we never really know how we'll be affected by someone's death and there's no "right" way to feel. i think that writing about it is an excellent way to deal with those feelings, jan...

Jan Allison
Date: 3/15/2015 12:04:00 PM

I would never have dreamed the journey I would go on when i started writing just 13 months ago - it is helping me through good times and bad:-) At the hospice they said it could be weeks, months, years before it willsink in:-( Hugs Jan xx

Poesy Relish

Date: 3/15/2015 11:09:00 AM

Oh Jan... may God ease your heart dear... hugs, nad

Jan Allison
Date: 3/15/2015 11:12:00 AM

I feel in limbo Nadiya - I can't understand why I don't feel sad - I am sure it will hit me in time - maybe I grieved enough before but it is not what I expected:-) Hugs jan xx