Now It's Up To You

I don't understand what went wrong between us, Or why our friendship is in such a fuss. I told you I loved you and I do and always will, And to get you to feel the same way again I would kill. I know you don't love me and I'm over that now, But you stabbed me in the back and I just don't see how. How could you talk about me in that way? I never expected it on any kind of day. I thought you were different than all other friends, And would be there for me in dark, thickened ends. I guess I was wrong and what they say it true: People never stay friends after their relationship is through. I wish they were wrong and it was just a big lie, Because you still mean the world to me and for you I would die. Even though you don't love me and you hurt me so bad, I still care about you and will never forget the love we once had. I'm not begging for an apology or a reason why, All I am asking you is for you to stop making me cry. I want to be good friends with you and close just liked you promised me, But right now it seems like that isn't even a possibility. I really thought you were different and not like them at all, I thought that you were the one that would catch me when I fall. Wherever life takes us, whichever way our future goes, I wish you the best of luck with whatever your future holds. I hope to be in your future because I loved the times we hung out, I never want to loose you-I know that without a doubt. Even though you cut me deep, I will always look and smile at you, Because you taught me many things that I never really knew. You taught me how to love and you taught me how to trust, You also taught me how to deal when everything just busts. Before I met you I was totally lost in a world all of my own, It felt like I was trapped in a deep, dark, empty hole. Then there was you who changed my life completely, And for that I thank you immensely. I have no regrets and loved every moment spent with you, I just wish you only knew. I wish you only knew how I feel right now compared to how things were. It seems like we are now only acquaintances and "friend" is just a word. I have shed so many tears-each one a cry for help, But in the end I have found myself standing by myself. So I guess I'm saying thank you for the times you were there for me, And letting you know that I enjoyed every memory. But now I guess it's fading and there's not much more I can do, I've tried so hard to change it, but now it's up to you.