Nothing

How do I say How I feel inside? Inside I feel numb, Nothing is there too, I try to feel something, be it with cigarettes or booze Neither helps, though I try I can never reach that goddamn high I’ve made it clear To those I love That I wish to be six feet below Instead of above Feeling is difficult When you feel Nothing Sometimes, even the strongest emotions Are pain and suffering It’s all part of my illness So they’ve told me But that doesn’t change the fact That I feel like I’m drowning Pull me out Before it’s too late…. It’s already settled, I’m doomed to my fate Nothing has taken me, deep within its static grasp I knew that I was never meant to last.