Not Tonight

Been nights when I was in deep clenching physical pain But not tonight Nights when I felt so alone and hopeless But not tonight Been nights when I could not decide whether I was depressed or enraged But not tonight Nights when reality of waiting on a result was too real But not tonight Been nights when I was terrified of the next day But not tonight Nights when I wanted to help so very much but could not But not tonight Been nights when I felt weak and impotent But not tonight Been nights when I could not control anything But not tonight Nights when everything seemed to have gone wrong with the day But not tonight Been nights when I thought that the Earth was against me But not tonight Nights when I fully took in the fact that the girl I loved did not love me But not tonight Been nights when my heart was so broken that I could cry But not tonight Nights when I wished I could let go, but did not But not tonight Been nights when I wished someone or something would save me, but alas did not But not tonight This night is not perfect, but I am at peace and thankful for it For I know how nights can be Thank heavens I am able to know how it is ... right now