Not the Same

I know what we used to have was really beautiful, We trusted and believed in each other and were so truthful. Than something happened, something very bad, I'd rather get pissed off or angry, but this time it mad me sad. My mind is clouded and I can't think strait anymore, I don't know what's going on with me but it hurts me to the core. I know that this is just another depression poem for you, But if this is the only way I can talk to you than I'll say what's true. You meant so much to me, I would of traded the heavens for you, But now I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like my heart got the flu. Its really not easy writing this right now cause the blood fills my eyes and its a blur, My hands shaking like I never felt them shake before. Remembering your skin rub against mine makes me even more sad, Cause now I know that I wont ever be this mad. I cried for you and I prayed for you, but you still and went and done me wrong, I don't know if that was a sign from you to make me tough or strong. Well I can tell you this though, this feeling will stay, Cause I don't know what it meant to you, but to me it was my last day. So, I am sorry for writing this, but this is what I have to claim, And not ever forget that this will never be the same.