Not Going Too

Fear embedded in my soul Taking complete control The pain that awaits me in the night Causes my body to freeze in fright don’t want to go that route with you I’m going to wait till I say “I do” My innocence is mine to protect If you don’t wish to wait then our time is spent Respect my body as you respect my mind Right now isn’t the right time I refuse to go down that route with you So I’m not going too Why go that far? Aren't we to young? To bond in that form of action of love Yeah I’m afraid!!! Aren't you? So many diseases out there That's worse than the flu! Some would counter saying “aren't you in love” Yeah, but why risk my life For a few minutes of sexual fun!?! Why not wait and get tested on the way? Why rush when you claim that you’ll stay? Just think it through don’t let it be a mistake Why go that far? that’s what I say… I want it too… To feel the warmth of our fire of love To be next to you through it all I want it too But I cant help but wonder If this is right to want or not? Wanting to be held all through the night Wanting to feel the warm embrace To feel to want to taste But thinking it through Its like a tease So for now I’m saying No way not now please!!!! (i wrote this a few years back)