Nobody Knows

Nobody knows, how many times I wanted to throw the towel in. I think maybe this time, I may have spread myself to thin. Nobody knows, how deeply I feel betrayed, No matter what I do, I can't make the grade. Nobody knows, the insane thoughts running thru my head, I know I'm alive, but I feel mostly dead. Nobody knows, the darkness I have seen. I hang in there, hoping this is just a dream. Nobody knows, the battles raging in my brain, The only thing, I feel is agony and pain. Nobody knows, the energy I have they can't see, My potential life force, and it's ability. Nobody knows how close, she came to destroying me. Her new lover, twenty years older and an amputee. Nobody knows, that my life is at stake. I'm not sure, how much more I can take. Nobody knows, how hard it is to get thru the day, My hopes and dreams, have been blown away. Nobody knows, that I feel like I'm all alone, I don't know how, but I'm holding my own. Nobody knows, that I'm scared and confused, This is the reason, I have such a short fuse. TURBO1904 11/27/2021