No Feeling

What's a moment if you can't feel Numb to the pain is anything real? Sitting outside contemplating suicide because life is such a cruel ride The bad always outweighs the good Frozen water is cold, but it still floats I heard hell is not really hot The flames are really cold, and my heart is melting And I'm trying to pick up the pieces still left Not much is left Don't know what is really the best Thing to do Dirty drinks, dirty mind, dark thoughts, dark clouds, no sun Positivity isn't allowed The negativity is too loud Quicksand is everywhere and I'm moving slow, feeling low I just don't know I numb reaching out for life But you can't grab what you can't feel No feelings I'm numb Like I'm just another number and there's too many to count Sticks and stones may break my bones but words I can't hear because I'm numb I want to feel the pain Tattoo my eyes Maybe then I would cry But I'm numb Tell myself I'm dumb Beat myself up I don't need a bully Me and I got the jump Rope around my neck but it doesn't matter I'm numb p.s. but I don't think I'm done...