Nightmares

These nightmares They Follow me around Feeding off my fear and anguish Falling in love with my hatred Repeated everyday It changes as it finds more ways than one to torture me From the people I love To the memories I try to keep But these nightmares They fog these memories I claw to as I bang my head for changing the only beloved thoughts of my old life My old friends My old thoughts I lay in my bed Fetal position Trying to comfort myself Rocking to the memory of my mother's voice Why can't I just live back to when everything was care free When I was happy? When life isn't revolved around one prayer that you wish that would come true That would change everything for me forever Is god listening? Can he hear my prayers of sadness floating like a storm cloud to the heavens? I cry myself to sleep Dreaming of the past of my faithful memories But I still wake up And the nightmares repeat again.