Never Surrender To Death

You think I’m happy You see the laughter on my face But you forgot to look into my heart And see the sorrow See the betrayal I’ve been through, the sadness I have to live The sun I do not have The love I lack The porch I need I am a one face position I can’t pretend I can’t pretend happiness But I try to conceal misery with a mask Called me Can you imagine walking, giving, loving But having hatred in return Can you imagine swearing never to speak to daughter of your mother? Saying its worth it and that her disrespect caused me to do it? When I find no respect nor love nor understanding Do you expect me to stay walking on the same trail? The trail that got me no good When you put your trust in someone…. And that person lets you down Gives you an odor of loneliness Gives you a punch of hell When you never met the one you love? Never have a chance to have a chat with your feelings When miles, countries, people separate between you and me Can I ever have a chance to tell u come back! The doors are closing The air is decreasing The dark light is only there The only guide To guide you to the doors of hell The path of never coming back The stairs of a scary place…, Where monsters are your only mates And blood is your only drink Where people get tortured and punished For they’re unpardonable sins I walk with eyes of red burning with disknowledge With heart bleeding with questions? Do I deserve this? A flashback of events gazed at me Showing me kinds of friends who gave me hope Hope to be what I desire Regardless of all others Telling me what family means Hitting my head with facts Facts of happiness Facts of standing Standing to face torment Giving it a medicine of it’s self As my red razor-sharp blade came from no where As I fought disgrace, pain and agony!! I started to feel delight, started to feel alive Suddenly woke up from the worst but not least real dream A dream who gave me something, missing for too long Never give yourself to death while u still can!