Need

Tonight I cried my heart away Accepting all the things I can not change Still left with heartache n pain Amongst n uneased brain Time is ticking The clock never stops As the hours go by I lay while my heart dies Lost in self pity Trying to dig out of a hole I never realized was not filled with cement A foundation with a sink hole The task seems uneasy The work displeasing equally a struggle Pulling up my pants tightening my buckle I've always been the Man as a woMan For once I've felt defeat As I realize the muscle Is not divided equally I never let him help I never let him see me struggle For now in distress my jester no longer juggles