My Words

Sitting here bored out of my mind I think back to better days left behind I only wish to not be so leery As my body gets quite weary And my eyes begin to close As they close the scene around me changes And everything quickly rearranges Making it all seem so blurry Like surrounded by quick falling flurries Then everything gets quite numb The numbness leads to a dark denial Leaving me without that smile That smile that pushed me to be dreaming Inside a head that’s always screaming Screaming for the falling rapture known today as life For this life that seems so endless This life that leaves your body listless Makes me wonder why we wonder Sitting here to rot and ponder I hit my knees wanting forgiveness For making life such an extreme mess For causing others pain and sorrow For being to weak to live till the morrow And as my pleading comes to end Everything grows dark again An echoing silence then fills my head Like all my thoughts were painted and bled For in my head filled utter black A blackness that had held me back And then a light shined from afar Breaking my silence and deaths bar My eyes opened to the warmth of you smile The smile they seemed to last for miles And the beauties of your soft sweet kiss That always made each day the best Leaving me knowing of that love inside The love I tried so hard to hide The love that brought me here to you Leaving me loving everything you do.