My Sweet Dilemma

I'll be leaving at night when there's no one at sight too afraid to make someone sad leaving them to shock, isn't any better than that. But hey, I'm outta choices. Dreams and so many voices. Telling me what I've got to do. So I'm risking it all for you. My life and my goal. You're all i have to enroll. You and this old guitar. If i ever succeed , maybe ill come visit them at our bar. They who've held my hand and got me this far. I'm not abandoning them, i say. I've just got to be a star. But then all their investment It doesn't matter,they always say. I'm still to young, is their view "Make up your mind, till then, please stay." But I'm sure what i want to do i cant hold it in the coursebook of my education this dream that i want to pursue make it big, be the sound on every station. Thinking is a waste. I tell myself. You have to take a perk on life's taste while you can still help. Friends will be waiting for me on this struggle road. But will they be there forever? Neither will my family, am i alone? What a drift from where i stand. But i cant move a step. I cant think right or wrong might as well make a song, wheres my tape? Yeah i use tapes, its a family matter. Memories come rushing in I cant let it all shatter, all my emotions are caving in. But my options make it fun to ponder about my life. My sweet dilemma makes my world turn but it sees my perspectives through different eyes. Then a jolt of reality as she sees me about to leave. She just stares at me, what does she perceive?