My Spiritual Battle

"MY SPIRITUAL BATTLE" I miss who I once was and use to be Bound by darkness, longing to be set free Trapped by solitude, surrounded by pain Nothing but heartache and sorrow to gain A spiritual warfare, raging from within Closer to despair than I have ever been A battle that carnal man could never understand As I struggle to hold to God's righteous hand The days are long, the nights are longer God please help me to grow stronger I have grown tired and weary in this fight As dimness overshadows your guiding light I scream so loudly but no one hears Is this my cross I must bear Where are the prayers of the righteous man Have they faded into the world’s hand My only hope is to see eternity begin But, how do I live my life until then This wicked world full of dangers and woes As I beg for this feeling to be loosed and let go How I pray for your peace that surpasses all understanding Trade my tears and sadness for joy everlasting To walk with the sunshine upon my face In exchange for this cruel, dark and lonely place God only you have the supernatural power to heal On fallen knees, I cry to you as I kneel How long must I suffer in darkness alone As my will to fight is all but gone Lord, you never promised that the cross would not become heavy That the way would not become rocky and would not always be steady However you promised to catch me if ever I should fall To hear my cries, my prayers and my late midnight calls Lord, I know I must suffer as you suffered too But the carnal in me cries for the Savior in you I know there is purpose in this storm that is raging I know for me, your heart must be breaking Reach out to me as you did Peter from the water Guide me steady, eyes on you and never to falter Fill me with hope and the promise of a better day And the faith to move mountains when I pray Lord if my time on earth should continue to linger Lift me from this darkness, despair and danger Heal me, leaving only battle scars to bear A wounded soldier, a testimony of victory to share Written by: Donetta Harless August 11, 2015