My Secret Sin

My situation is no better but nor is it worse Rehearsing grace at the dinner table I ain’t hungry, my stomach just hurts Another day has passed Now I’m just one day away From seeing yesterdays cast And on these black pages lies, my secret sin I’ve learned that you can let go of your pain Just by helping another get through theirs Who would’ve thought, you find someone who cared My misery and stress I print it in between those college rules Even when my patience is guessed I choose to remain peaceful and cool Slowly run your fingers along these black pages Feel for your selves my secret sin We don’t have those same love songs That once could take you away Tear you apart, when you have nothing to say And put you back together on that same shattered dream On which we lay Shed tears when I think back on the past eight teen years And I apologize for not being sincere Especially at times when you would tell me Your only love was for me still being here Heart to heart, closer than apart One those black pages lies my secret sin I’m going to find my way to my grave regardless So many say I’m stubborn and heartless Everyday I searched for a home My loved ones were gone Pardon me please For my soul is partly at ease