My Secret

As I sit here tonight, Like so many nights before I realize that behind me now You will soon walk through the door So many nights I’ve sat alone And in my heart I would debate Because there was no one coming home And no reason for me to wait But tonight, I wait for you to come When you finally make it here When your working day is done And I can once again feel you near Perhaps I haven’t told you But I think that you should know As much as I hate when you leave I love it when you make it home And there you are, I hear the door And I turn as you walk in And every time I see you there I feel those butterflies again You come to me, with a kiss And ask, “How was your night?” I am thinking inside me “Now that you’re here, it’s all right.” Though I forget at times to say How important to me you are I hope you truly understand That I love you with all my heart Because as I sit here in my chair And my back is turned to you I wipe away a silent tear Because you are my dream come true So if sometimes I seem distant And you wonder why I cry Know that you’ve done nothing wrong It’s just the pain I hold inside Because I do not feel worthy Of the love you give so freely And I wonder how I would survive If you ever were to leave me I know this isn’t what you pictured When you came to give your love And I regret so much that’s happened And often feel I’m not good enough You aren’t what makes me feel this way I just want so much for you And inside the reason for my tears Is that I’m not your dream come true But you should know that deep inside There is so much love I hold And at times it overwhelms me I wish I could let it show But until I can find my strength again And can share these words so true I hope you truly understand I am so in love with you