My Pride

YOU will never know someone as thoughtful and loving as me. Ive given you unconditional love as if it were free. I should have made you step up and pay the fee. But you see I have this problem that I need to fix. I let men hold me down as if Ive been thrown into a deep lake clenching onto several bricks. I can remember putting boys before my own worth since I was about six. Now you stand before me putting me through the same old crap. Intertwining our lives but its really one big complex trap. One would think I could see this *****before me in a quick snap. The truth is I teach men how to treat my soul. Its almost like my ancestors wrote this life for me on ancient scroll. How I was taught to believe my own self worth has taken a toll. I spend every possible moment teach my kids their value and worth. From the moment I gave birth. As long as my child walks this earth. She will know her life has unlimited possibilities. I pray I can teach her her gifts in this life and all her capabilities. The honor she must have for herself and her main responsibilities. You see that precious message wasn't given to me as a young child. That is why I feel so desperately compiled. To see my daughters become strong confident young ladies that are not at all wild. I must have done something right along the way. Because listening to myself teach them and they words that I say. To myself and my children I choose not to betray. So walking before them with a better sense of self worth and pride. For my actions have to speak as a road map and a guide. I pray god continues to give me the strength and understanding he so graciously supplies. For I am a child of god after all. I know my value now and it isn't anything minutiae or small....