My Own Therapist

Can I stop drinking, from these days that seem longer. Test will power to the limit, then become much stronger. Wish I can tell my family, that I am bad, I'm a drunk, they'll never understand. The feeling of being sober, is worst then being alone. Maybe I should die, or stop being a moan. I cannot leave my family, so I keep breathing in this world that I walk through. I'm lost in this mess, with no one to talk too. So until my last sunset, that lays on my path, this bliss I say goodbye to, that I never loved.