My Only Fear

I am not afraid of death. Inevitable, it will come without notice. There is only one thing that I am afraid of. A problem that cannot be solved or deterred. Something that cannot be forgotten with any drug or conversations. It lies deep within my heart and only at the back of my mind. For if this time will come, I will be in frenzy of thoughts that will race faster than light. Louder than any explosion and a hurt that will eventually last a lifetime. I am afraid that I will not be able to sense you ever again. To hold you in my arms and smell the natural scent of your being. To see the smile that weakens me, yet pushing me through any obstacles. Your eyes that etched deep within the essence of my thoughts. Your heart beat that soothe my ears in a rhythmic movements of your love. I am not afraid of anything else... My only fear is to live life with your absence. The only thing I will never let go.