My Name

My name was picked by my mother Shared with brother, changed by grandmother, leaving me to uncover the truth from another Not her so I suffered My name means Honesty, Sacrificer, and Admirer. The truth is not something I struggle with Not something I struggle giving Dealing blunt words of life and death to the living An ocean full of sirens singing and unforgiving The true gasoline to the fire of the conversating of thanksgiving Not a sacrificer but a survivor Not dead and gone but a reviver Not continuous so my actions deprive her Shot straight for the stars like a designated driver Smart but I hope I get wiser, mean but I thought I’d get nice, neither one, wasn’t that a surpriser Yeah I bet I surprised her My loyalty shaped like a bent knife, left to your mind to decipher Others hurt by words, in front of your face like a 1st time arriver Step back or get pounced, I advised her The light disappeared before I could admire her An Admirer I’m not disturbed by isolation Gives the snakes roaming on my head motivation There’s A thin line between love and hate, like death and creation After being ignored like Katniss “Thanks for your consideration” 18 points behind leads to scrams of frustration As you wait on your ticking time bomb of your sure elimination Taken life with full force hesitation As you make plans with your angels for your once in a life time reservation That you see the perfectly laid out foundation I just gave you a full fledge explanation Of my name’s discrimination Not common so it causes intimidation My name, my own population My name’s civilization My name’s hasn’t gathered even a neutral reputation I somewhat admire this Generation It’s good and all but it doesn’t deserve the A+ Glorification The dogs of this world not really good at communication Their harsh barks a part of the demonstration Their paws mark the world on it’s axis as it finishes it’s rotation I admire the differentiation I admire life’s sensation And the pedestal it puts you on to your elevation I admire the expectation that the manipulation of degradation is a violation in every other state but we’re special so that’s not apart if your characterization The blatant Invitation And the Implication of your obvious fixation That eventually turns into a heated confrontation Of right and wrong in this nation That’s my name. No need for alteration My name. You know me. No need for verification And my mom knew me too. That’s why my name means Honestly, Sacrificer, and Admirer. Cryston? I admire her.