My Minds Shield Against You

To save my heart I learnt to love another, I blocked you out and forgot you. The times were shared, Your seductive smile, Your comforting arms, Your ever gleaming personality, Well, I tried … You hurt me; To think of you was to weep, To remember the times we had was crippling, To love you was suicide. It took time but now my mind has saved me. I attempt to think of the times we shared, Your smile, Your hold, You. My subconscious created a shield against you, Each time I try a thick fog clouds my mind, I can only remember two things before the shield starts to work, 1. Your name. 2. You hurt me more than anyone has and will. This is the only way I know you now. It had been while since I last tried to think of you. I decide to test it. The shield is still working Your name, the fact you hurt me, then nothing nothing but, a thick, white, fog. But for how long? If I see you again shall the shield hold strong? Or will the walls crumble? Shall I walk past you, head held high and proud? Or will I fall and breakdown in your arms? I guess there is only one way to find out, Come on shield lets test your strength, See just how effective you are, Let’s put you to the test. We have a date with destiny.