My Life of Death

My Life of Death No, why me? That could’t be true. I’m not deserving of this pain that deaths put me through. Tears and pain perfected by the people who LOVE me, forgiving in abundance so hatred won’t consume me. Betrayed by the love your parents gave. Pain by the generations that’s the same. Angered by all the times life has let me down. Saddened by all my love ones who could’t stay around. Grief because I hate you and I know it in’t right. I keep telling myself there was happy times when I cry myself to sleep at night. I try to make the good outweigh the bad, But constantly I block the thoughts of the times you made me sad. I love you not you love me because your love was conditionally anger, mad, sadness and grief I didn’t know happiness until happiness left me Death you thought was physical too, But the death I speak if of you. Goodbye.