My Life and How She Ruined It (Part 1 See Part 2 It Was Too Long)

My life is broken My dreams are crushed I cant trust her And my life is wrecked My plans are destroyed And my life is down the drain They are mad And they hate me The broken one is dying I cant do anything I’m not in the mood Suicide isn’t an option My sweater is gone My gasses broke Body out of shape Invisible I know mom is right But I just cant do it If her parents knew who she was They’d kill her She deserves it She wrecked my life There are no loopholes I want to die I want to die I just cant take this anymore If I were not born would it have been better For her For them For my family For my old friends? I am dead And broke My parents cant afford me My aunt lost her job With the bad economy It makes my heart throb I should get a job To help pay Should I sell all my stuff Or just move away? I was just in heaven On cloud 100 Higher than high Then I fell to hell! Burning in fire In a big pit And I keep sinking deeper And soon I’ll be dead. I cant do this I’m not suppose to cry But I fell and fell And well now the reader of this can just go to hell! So go away and live your life I’ll just burn in hell And be a lifeless piece of knife He yells She yells Everything is destroyed I should just leave and sell everything They could still get a good probably $750 for this laptop 130 for my new camera A good 20 for my computer stand Probably 35 for my old computer And maybe 120 all together for my animals 500 for the piano 150 for my waterbed 15 for my rug And more for all my toys downstairs I want to die I want to die School is a bore I am already a dork I’m just another spoon or fork I hate my life and I hate her If he was here I cry to him But he is dead I cant go to his/grandma/my dog My life is a mess I hate it I want to go to my aunt’s house I want to move To die To cry To murder To sue To leave money for my parents Them kill myself I cant go Not like this She stormed out He is incredibly angry Because of me Because of life Because of her! My life is wrecked But because of mine so is theirs I want to fit it But I can’t They yell and scream I tighten and cry I can’t get between them it’s like they pick sides They have frustrations Because of me But if I wasn’t born they wouldn’t have They could be Alone Peaceful Happy Stress free But that’s not the cause I am here Wishing I’m not And it’s all because of her That I’m put on the spot