My Letter To You

Why do you tease me that way? Put gold in my path when you know it won't stay. Make me think of hope, when I just don't feel that way. You tempt me in ways no other does. You seduce my feelings and make them feel warm, only to cause an emotional storm. I'm tired of you hailing on my parade causing disruptions in my plans, that you have already made. How dare you not tell me what my fate is to be. How dare you let me suffer, why do you enjoy watching as I cry on my knees? Does it bring you peace knowing I am always in fear, always sad with anger always near. Do you cry when I cry or when I am in pain? Can you feel any of that? I feel like I am going insane. I don't want to throw a pebble into a pond where the ripples are never-ending. I want to let go and let you help heal my heart, my life needs mending.