My Heart Waver's

My Heart Waver's I have no shame and letting you cry and letting you fell into the hole you won't climb out of.I waver on the past my heart circle from dawn till dusk.There was a moment I wanted you but now it seem I don't want another close to this swollen heart.You should have been careful I'm cruel and unforgiving you wouldn't listen so you couldn't learn.There has never been a time that i would have been so happy not to see a smile. deaf people are crude blind man or loud but you seem to be both.I'm mute you are listening to a cold heart,you should have been ready to feel the cold wrap around you in the moment said you loved me.But in my heart I wanted you to hate me to loath me to want to see me dead,at least you wouldn't feel pain.My heart wavers for I have killed and wished to be killed by the very hands,Who are you to tell me what I shouldn't and should feel.My heart wavers at the very sight of you my body fall as I feel myself losing to a game I never wanted to play I can't speak as you speak your dying words.My thought are what have I done.There will be a day that you will come to hate me and when that day come you will have found another to love,at least you will have open your heart to another.As my heart waver after a win and defeat how how have I hurt you?