My Greatest Goal

memories a distant haze remembering the nightmare days through my uncertain phase when drugs were all my craze I lie awake at night recalling the great fight high as the proverbial kite the snorting of the white the roller coaster ride the times I had no pride look washed up on the tide I sat alone and cried myself I could not tame myself I knew the shame myself only to blame myself no more the same effects are always here though it's been many a year still shed the oddest tear regret my time on gear still don't sleep well at all lost it all I clearly recall nightmares of my desperate fall staying clean my greatest goal