My Future

Sitting here trying to figure out my future Will amended plans enable me to achieve my dreams? I’m sitting here late at night trying to think things through just right If I plan carefully, just maybe I can pull it off All I know is: the mainstream path I’m on clashes with my style I’m overworked and under slept to the extremes all in attempts to reach my high-aiming dreams I need to achieve them for myself because if I don’t then I am lost I’ll have no idea what to do I’ll have spent all these years in vain I’ll have ignorantly wasted years of my life wasting them all on pain for no gain I’m wanting more than what I’ve already had I’m wanting to live up to the standards and dreams I share with Mom and Dad I don’t want to let everyone down or to give others the glory of gloating I don’t want to prove the doubters right I don’t want to disprove my supporters I need this dream to become reality or I won’t know what to do I’ve harbored it within me for so long it’s the only goal I’ve ever known If I’m not meant to have it then why has it been instilled in me?