My Dismal Depression

I grieve for your safety, sis, and I pray for you almost every day – Depression does leave a big impact on us in a negative way But I think you think I’m crazy…tell me if I am… My heart’s devouring curiosity, pain and sham And still – there’s questions left unanswered… I feel awkward…I feel unheard like a loner at school, hovering around, yet feeling ignored Staring at a blank screen before me…hurting my eyes a bit to a certain degree I see that I have a long way to go with my writing process I see my past unwind – set me free…the time will never leave me be I’m living in a fairy tale, never truly bowing down to true success Let me be…let me flutte like a butterfly out of its cocoon Let me be who I want to be…let me shine bright like the moon I’m glistening in the moonlight – I love you more than before I wish the night away…hoping for some sunshine I’ll stay with you till the day I pass away We’ll fight this depression wars…if only you were mine We’ll go through remorse and romance Together…forever…we’ll dance in a serenity-indulged trance Do you hear the wind, whispering their “goodbyes”? Clear skies beam upon me for a little while at last! Nothin’ but joyous skies feels therapeutic to my eyesight… Forgetting the dilemmas that I’ve encountered and the horrid past Clear baby blue skies hang above our heads in polished delight Can you see right through me? Will you ever see me in this reality? You are bothering me, DEPRESSION!? (~!@#$%^&*()_+) All I see is dismal clouds passing me by, accepting derision as a friend instead of a foe Should I just move on with life? Why do I feel the urge to cry? I stab myself with frustration and hurt badly – I feel guilty for your crimes and your sympathy will never show…let the wicked wind blow! It pierces like an arrow that flies by night, hitting bull’s eye Regret shouldn’t get the best of me Why should I have an unwanted guess by the name of Anxiety? I’m alone at last…but the future is left unknown And, yet I don’t groan and God’s my backbone – I accept the truth of it all… These scars won’t heal at all, Can’t help but be in the helpless frame of mind and the shattered state The stars dim when city lights illuminate the ebony skies, revealing the cemented ink painted in the atmosphere, unwavering without a smear of fear Hold on to the bars before you – hold on to me, my love – I can’t help, but hesitate – I keep thinking of my future, fretful fate Please wait for me till the dawn scorches aflame like the planet Mars, but until then – turn the wheel! Turn the wheel! Hold on to the rope of hope – it won’t harm us, my dove! I can’t escape my ruins, but I can change for the better and pick all the pieces up and sweep away the debris - all we are is dust on the ground, rising like the horizon of the sunset…stimulating our eyes with undying appeal From where the sun now stands, I’ve been succumbing to tragedy and preparing for the battle that lies ahead