My Desire

I stop hating I stop loving I stop thinking I stop caring I stop shaking I stop living Every day so I can look in the mirror Every day to hide my deepest fear In order to stand up straight I pretend not to believe in fate The future is a place I don't belong Every decision I've ever made is wrong Is it possible for me to exist like this When only my past is what I miss I've lost my family I've lost my friends I've lost my enemies I've lost my heart I've lost my life I've lost myself Searching for a reason I'll never find A dark truth that will never unwind Trapped in my mind, decisions of the past Wondering how long this feeble life will last On the outside I am able to maintain But inside I can feel myself going insane I am losing grip on who I used to be Hating most of all the inner me I wish for nothing I desire everything I wish for darkness I desire peace of mind I wish for emptiness I desire Death