My Dear Friend

I've been up at night lately I can't seem to fall asleep lately I keep lying to myself lately I know what it's like to lose somebody you love I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs I remember your face and then I burst into tears I remember your laugh and then I burst into tears All the good times we shared all the hard liquor we shared I knew your entire family and u knew mine I've known u since I was eleven and u were nine I haven't been myself lately I feel like someone else lately I've been thinking about you lately I went away to study but we kept in touch But as the years went by we fell out of touch When you fell sick I sat and watched in fear Couldn't imagine losing a friend that was so dear I thought that you would get better Just like the sky after bad weather But the rain never stopped falling and that little dark voice kept on calling As time went by you got worse and worse Pill after pill and test after test The battle for life became harder and harder I wanted to call so many times and ask how you are doing But something always came up and I end up forgetting The last thing you posted online was why be miserable during your last days ? Then there was no update the following days Lupus took my friend away from me A friend who always saw the best in me A true hero and a real fighter who is forever with me Do you know what it's like to lose somebody you love ?