My Ashes

Intense pain pure and uncut blinding all righteous thought out of sight a chilling journey inconjunction with a trouble plight dark bleeding gums from biting my tongue and a bruised throat from choking on my words I wanna scream out loud and shake the bark from my family tree to fill the void I've come out of to tear off these notions and happy thoughts I wanna ponder the thought and wonder in frenzy at my own misery I hate smiling I hate laughing give me pain pure and haunting give me chaos give me night take away the day bludgeon the clouds and tweek the stars spit on my grave and leave no footprints in my ashes