My Angel

If this is what I have to live with, all the messed up things I did, well find a way to relive time before that messed up midnight chime. To relive the way I hurt you girl all this pain is just a swirl of angry oceans, violent voices, because I overlooked the choices. But you were young and I was cold I'd take it back for me to hold you gently in my palm until the oceans have turned calm, but knowing what I know right now I hope you understand just how I had to leave your body lying in that gutter slowly trying to catch a breath, to break a sweat, to struggle with thoughts of regret. But time was short I made a choice to give up on that pretty voice. One step forward two steps back I'm ready for your heart attack. But ill be home, you'll see me soon under the shade of midnight moon so I can leave you once again and leave you with that dreadful pain. We both know that I have no say just know that soon it will be that day when you put your self onto a plane to be with me and then ill say, “We made it here through thick and thin and all this pain was my own sin to bare upon my wounded chest but now its time for us to rest for we are here we made it through theirs nothing left for us to do, but live like angles with ourselves we'll put the past upon a shelf let it cover up with dust and cover us with needed lust.” But I know no one can hurt you like I do. I know this is true. But now it is over, I am here sober to tell you I love you. Its and indescribable feeling to see you smile, one last time, through all of our trials. my angel, this is for you.