Must I Help Myself Worsen

Worse How do you make someone worse or better I believe it depends on their character What they believe Who they are around What they've seen But I want to do both Be worse than what they expect Be better than what the rest accept Which one do I overtake No one will tell No one can help I don't tell anyone They will not understand People will only think I'm crazy Psycho Insane Or just joking It makes me so damn angry Kids at school say they have issues They need pills They need therapists even when they aren't dealing with anything nor themselves They just think it's cool They think it's funny I am struggling with people's words I'm struggling but wanting to strive with my soul that is caged in my bones But what do I do I won't speak Who will I tell How do I explain all these days what I've been thinking Will I remember what I need to say Where are those memories Keep them here You will end up in a mental facility You will be in jail You will only be killed They will not understand you They don't know you You don't even know you I don't know who I am Why even try to explain what I am