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Moving On

In your eyes I am my illness; it’s all that you can see I lack the courage that is needed to take root and grow me Is it my bipolar disorder or anxiety that you fear? That keeps you holding on so tight, you’re strangling me my dear I’m grateful for your care while I convalesced In your eyes you need to heal me, but I just needed rest Feeling like half a person with you lying in your bed I must be moving on from you, I know I’m being led In your eyes the sickness is the only reason You’re reminded of my brokenness and of all my demons When I’m with you in nothingness my voice doesn’t make a sound I secretly share myself with strangers when you’re not around I cannot be my best with you and stand on my own feet I must find my own meaning, I have challenges I must meet I’m busting out; I’m breaking free of the doubts that have holds on me I’m taking all my baggage; it’s time I set us free

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Brenda Meier-Hans

Date: 9/13/2014 8:39:00 AM

Very powerful and well written Christine. Congratulations on your win.

Christine Costello
Date: 9/13/2014 11:39:00 AM

Thank you Brenda-it's humbling. :-)

Faye Gibson

Date: 9/13/2014 8:29:00 AM

Very good, Christine. I love secretly share myself with strangers when you're not around. Congratulations!

Christine Costello
Date: 9/13/2014 11:42:00 AM

Thank you Faye and Congrats to you also. :-)

Pandita Sietesantos

Date: 9/13/2014 7:50:00 AM

Excellent write, Christine! Congratulations on your second place great win! Pandita

Christine Costello
Date: 9/13/2014 11:44:00 AM

Pandita- thank you for your comment and congrats to you as well.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 9/13/2014 7:23:00 AM

I grew up with a dad who suffered with Bi-polar disorder. Back then it was called manic depressive. He mixed his lithium with massive quantities of alcohol and we could not quiet the cracking of the eggshells we walked on. Beyond his illness I seen the potential he never realized and the helping hands he never reached for. Sometimes illness can blind us. Congrats on a great write.

Christine Costello
Date: 9/13/2014 11:56:00 AM

Richard-thank you for your comments. I went a lifetime untreated -I thought I was ok b/c I was successful in my career but my relationships were erratic. This past year I was diagnosed and began treatment and I recognize the dysfunction in some relationships-this is my breaking free poem. Congrats on your well-deserved win for an outstanding poem.

Ravi Sathasivam

Date: 9/13/2014 1:31:00 AM

Emotional write. Well composed. Enjoyed. Tfs

Christine Costello
Date: 9/13/2014 11:45:00 AM

Ravi-thank you for your comments. :-)

Brian Johnston

Date: 9/11/2014 1:15:00 PM

Dear Poet, of course you are not your illness! But your illness can have a powerful effect on others as well. It makes them ill too. Do not make your lover into his illness either. OK? There is a power lesson for all expressed in these simple words... 'If your happiness depends on other's changing, there will be a lot of disappointment in your life, but make the smallest change in yourself and tomorrow, you will find, that the whole world is different.' That Christine is where true power lies!

Christine Costello
Date: 9/11/2014 2:47:00 PM

Brian- wise words my friend. The lover is fictitious, however I do have a relationship in my life where I am told what I can't do because of my illness. I believe whole-heartedly that we teach people how to love us and I must make the change in setting us both free which I hope I illustrated in this poem.

Maurice Yvonne

Date: 9/8/2014 8:07:00 PM

you are important and vital. another person can never define you. this a talented courageous write. good for you. it was inspiring to me and for that i thank you.

Christine Costello
Date: 9/8/2014 8:55:00 PM

Thank you so much for your thoughtful words-it strengthens my spirit to be in receipt of them. :-)

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 9/8/2014 4:59:00 PM

A good one for facing your fears and standing up to what is keeping you from being your best self. YOu have a trial to bear and I hope you prevail!!

Christine Costello
Date: 9/8/2014 9:01:00 PM

Andrea- thank you for your wishes-I will prevail because it is what god intends for me. :-)

Vincent Flannery

Date: 9/8/2014 1:30:00 PM

Very good write Christine. And great self strength at the end. I pray whatever your challenges are, that you overcome them. Thank you for your comment.

Christine Costello
Date: 9/8/2014 9:02:00 PM

Thank yo Vincent for the encouraging words. :-)

David Brown

Date: 9/8/2014 11:54:00 AM

Wow, very powerful emotional work Christine. Thank you for sharing, this is wonderful work.

Christine Costello
Date: 9/8/2014 12:19:00 PM

David, thank you for your kind words. :-)