Moved On Now

Its been years may be, as i enter you room again, feeling of lonliness creeps again. feeling of vacivity inside me. weeks into months into a years have passed, back again i m here. my birthday again, have come to pack your things, to move on in life... difficult to but i will... a gift giving myself on your behalf as you would want me to move on... long after you have gone, scent of your colonge still lingers in there.. the aroma reminds me of some good old days, days we spent together, danced infront of my eyes in flash, memory of my surprised birthday given by you, happiest day of my life... other memories leaving a smile on my face i wish i could over turn time and find myself with you, its too late now..... i feel to pessundate who have done this.. i know its wrong to talk or think like this but i cant help it.. tough to live like this. so here i come to have a recap only for one last time and move on.. as you would dislike me to suffer like this.. as i pack your things with my feelings into suitcase gate of memories will be closed forever, time spent together cherished forever. those memories spent together will stay in my heart, silent tears will be passed...as all goes into the bags, your cuffs, ties, pocketscarves,shirts lie in there.. lost to luster... our photo frames, rings inside on the stand my first earned gift lie unused you said you will use those black cuffs when you come back broke your promise! i know you robbed my book and i knew you aware of it as you robbed to tease me is now covered with dust... i would pack with other things... as i pull drawer, watch gifted by you father too goes in bag.. beautifull memories of happiness and quarrels, from our past.. i could not apart... it started to unfold, tears i could not control. those natrum muriaticums rolling dowm my ckeeks but your absent even to wipe them. more my heart bleeds. as i dig your stuff into siutcase, bury my face into your clothes with our memories.. you have gone for real, sacrifised for our land our country. you in heaven, me earth, distance too long, yet time for me to travel there... so proud to associate with you but difficult to live without you.. but i will move on as my eyes watched all getting packed, only few our traces left behind.. i stood for long with a hope you would come again back to me but its late so i move on with positive approach, on a good note with you minus any bitterness.. as we both rest in peace, you in heaven me in earth..