Mother

I have to say being a mother is a special job.. Saying I love you is easy. But sticking out for the long haul is hard. Mother’s do that. I lost my mom back in July 2011. I know a lot of you know that. But it is as fresh to me as it happened yesterday. When I saw her in the casket my world felt like it was gone.I fell apart! Everything was different…I couldn’t understand why the sun came up….. why there was another day.. Why didn’t everyone stop and know my mom was dead….. But you know what My sweet mother did? From heaven Mom called for me…. She called for me!!! I had been crying for days losing my mom. I was so very tired. I had driven a long way from North Carolina to Texas. .. In fact it took me twenty four hours to drive…… I had my son with me and he helped me drive. But after all the crying and driving … well let me say it was hard. I didn’t care if I lived or went on. I got back to Texas and looked at my grandchildren my sons and my beautiful daughter in laws and knew they needed me….. They loved me and I knew I had to go on. I could not give up!.. I just want to say HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to all you Mothers out there. It is not easy job but it is a rewarding job. I have to say I miss my mom so much. I miss giving her a Mother’s day present…. So guess what? I am going to find someone else and adopt them as my mother and do for them like I did for my mom….. Oh …… I didn’t tell you what mom said to me after she had passed… I was almost asleep I had been crying missing her. And she called... “Brooke, Brooke it’s me your mom... Please don’t cry. I love you. It is alright. Please don’t cry.” She said that to me two different times and I have not heard anything else from her. But you know even though I am sad I know she is at peace. And so am I. In fact she told me before she died. “Brooke, she said, you and all of you have got to let me die. You have got to let me go home to Jesus. “ I turned away from her when she said that. You see I was very selfish. But I know the pain she was in. She needed to go. If You have lost your mom then my heart goes out to you. If you are a mom then you know what I am talking about. God bless you all and know I love you all and you are in my prayers….. All your hurt and love is in my prayers.. Brooke I will always love you mom.. Always