Mortification Fortified

Stimulated off of asphyxiation Chortling silence kills me alive Ignoring the pain of your rain I’m your everything I’m nothing without you Love is where home is Joy is where home is Spiraling, mad as a hornet once again Spinning, sad cuz my heart is broken Hello…darling stillness of your breathing I hear your singing and melt instantaneously I have no one to talk to at this moment… Just give me a head’s up when you need me I turned the other cheek on stage I gave in to second guessing rage My dream is to be a performer… I suppose I’m just this writer… Living a lie Living a lie Bottling these tears of bipolar depression I lost vision and feelin’ like giving up Suddenly, I recognize that yesterday is gone Today is the new me… Tomorrow is a wandering sea Twisting and turning snakes snarl and grimace at me at night I am as bold as a lion… I’m a vivacious champion, Hanging on the chandelier Without any form of fear All the time, I see sorrow Can’t wait for tomorrow Dying alive in your arms Dying alive in your arms Giving in to your charms Giving in to your charms Becuz I’m brainwashed as it is… Hypnotized to your tune of the abyss Coldness and distress is in excess I’m making lots and lots of progress Buried alive, But I survived Empty and alive Vacantly staring at stars that refuse to shine You’re mine like a red cup of purple-green wine Why can’t I be all the way normal? Normal is a demon in disguise I am weird, awe-inspiring and tall Quiet down, you gals and guys I’m going through episodes of troublesome times I’m through with you… I’m sorry for being rude – I must intrude your space I have the attitude of gratitude I’m not proud and arrogant Compared to you, I’m a hard-working ant… I wipe the sweat from my forehead Dreaming that this dread would disappear I hold you oh so dear… I’m sorry for taking you for granite Give me a reason To overcome the waves of emotion Give me another season I can’t stand the silence and commotion I’m abashed frankly and screaming out aloud, But no one hears Years and years later, I move away from the crowd I have bleeding ears Rejected, but I’ll see you on the other side Infected, but I’ll smell you on the other side Distracted, but I’ll touch you on the other side Affection floods into me…I’ll hear you on the other side Interaction is blood to my veins…I have the confidence to go on a Six Flags ride Because I have ambition from above His Spirit accepts me…not you, love