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Mood swings refer to rapid changes in mood. The term may refer to minor daily mood changes or to significant mood changes as seen with mood disorders such as major depression or bipolar depression.  There are a number of reasons for a change in mood, but this poem focuses on DIURNAL MOOD VARIATION. While technically not a separate diagnosis from clinical depression, diurnal mood variation is sometimes referred to as “morning depression.” 

This was written on 16 September 2021 in collaboration with Ink Empress.

There is no escape from strange morning whims, when irritation causes numbness in my limbs. Dawn has become an unwelcome nemesis, rage for sunrise an uncontrollable genesis, disturbing the peace of my silent reverie, tormenting all that is felt as sensory. I despise the chirping of hungry birds, so intrusive as they sing in their herds. Echoing like chisels chipping at my head, feeling chained to the corners of my bed. I seek no pardon for my profanity, these moods are ***ing with my sanity. I search for signs of positivity, but daylight always triggers my sensitivity. Mind slices my thoughts through dissections, as I hold my head craving for soundless reflections. Sluggish eyes with black bags and static lips, cringe at the mirror as reality grips, washing away a contradictive smile, without harmony my life is too much of a trial. Thinking f*** my life through censored cries, I don't even have the strength to roll my eyes. Is there a diagnosis for this prognosis? Or will I forever be in this state of hypnosis? I’m neither depressed nor suppressed, in this cramped compression of distress. I’m anxious attempting to figure it all out, stumbling across worn voices begging to shout. Those explosive beats from poisonous roots, soften my crumbling knees like rotten fruits. All I can think is, “oh please, cut that crap” battling my demons, before I finally snap. As my mind bleeds like a demented creep, I no longer require the desire to speak. As talk is cheap, can’t you see all I need is sleep. To forever restrict my emotions before I weep. Tired of being a puppet with twisted strings, I hope these pills can tame my mood swings.

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Date: 12/8/2023 4:54:00 PM
I could relate to some of this. You both did an amazing job together. Keep it up!
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Date: 12/7/2023 6:33:00 AM
"Cringe at the mirror as reality grips." "I don't even have the strength to roll my eyes." "I'm neither depressed nor suppressed" "I hope this pills can tame my mood swings." This poems wails my name. This is something I can really relate to because everyday, it comes with different self diagnosis and indeed I usually don't have the strength to roll my eyes. Lovely piece, full of in-depth realism. Nice collaboration and kudos to you both.
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Date: 12/6/2023 5:12:00 PM
So hard! Not everyone lives life with the same enjoyment.
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Date: 12/6/2023 4:27:00 PM
you've given me pause with your collaborative words about 'morning depression.' The enormity of that sickness has got to be maddening for those who are so plagued. Your imagery is, of course, beautiful and your rhyme scheme flows so easily. You and Ink are truly gifted and work well together. Enjoy your evening and thanks for sharing, Sara
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Date: 12/6/2023 1:04:00 PM
The entire piece resounds with strong feelings, SO. Your and IE's work on this poem that emphasizes mood fluctuations is praiseworthy. You possess extensive expertise on this topic and are an exceptional intuitive who precisely interprets how others feel. You two are remarkably well-aligned; you are both brilliant. Your poem is a seamless flow, characterized by exquisite imagery and rhyme. Blessings to both of you.
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Date: 12/6/2023 6:28:00 AM
Intense emotions resonate throughout, SO. Kudos to you and IE, for this poem highlighting mood swings.
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Date: 12/6/2023 2:33:00 AM
Gosh! Lol this must have been a hard collaboration for me to do, rhymes are my enemy lolol. Ah i remember writing on this theme, its so good to see you still have our collaborations as i lost most of my poems when i lost my insta. And you definitely are the best to write on any mental health subject that needs awareness. You have great knowledge on this subject and is a great empath that understands what individuals feel exactly. An honour to have you post this here on soup. Thank you for postin
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Ayesha Iqbal
Date: 12/6/2023 8:31:00 AM
Aww I have always loved reading collabs by you and Silent One.. you two are exceptionally good together, so in sync! Good to see some of your old poems here dear.. brilliantly expressed the bitterness, helplessness of those depressive episodes! Thank you so much for sharing your truth filled pieces with us and guiding us Islanders! You two have been our true light! So grateful for that!

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