Mixed Emotions

sometimes i wanna scream i hate you ....... but i know I'd be lieing cause i know i really love you and its crazy cause i love you so much it hurts .... because deep down inside i feel myself slowly slipping away from you and no matter how bad i know i want this something inside me wont let me stay i try so hard to keep the pieces together but as time passes one piece falls at a time all i do is pick each up and try to continue when i know im pushing you away all i want is for you to stay but the way im feeling is only making it worse its like i have so much to say but dont know how to express all of it i just need you to know its not you its me i have to much pride to let myself get hurt again i put my walls up but all i want is for one person to help me break them down cause i dont wanna loose the one person i care about so much to something that could've been solved with one touch .