Missing You

I lay here in an empty bed As my constant tears blur the rain, My mind races as I fall asleep Nothing helps to ease the pain. The morning comes I feel such dread I want the day to quickly end, Hoping tomorrow I do not wake, So I can be with my husband again. What I seem to feel the most Is hopelessness and fear, I would give my whole life, For a seconds to have you near. My days are long, nights are lonely, My life shattered, that I once had. The two questions that haunt my mind What's my purpose ? why is life so bad ?.