Missing

I always thought bad Thoughts were planted in my head From the negative words she said Reasons I could never find I searched And searched Thought of all the bad ideas She had Then to realize This made me extremely mad A child A teenager Protecting your name For what? Who cares? You are to blame Lived somewhere for years And you never even knew No visit Rare calls I was sleeping on the floor Roaches and rats Guns and violence You weren't there Life seemed unfair Tried to do things myself I stumbled And mistakes were made Baby at 19 When all I prepared to do Was go away Dorm life Become a psychologist That was my #1 goal No dad No direction I knew your name Visits became faded Always felt unwanted I just needed to be needed I begged and pleaded You were that parent I needed Missing Gone But I've moved on Stronger for myself For me To live And move along I will until this day Stay strong & Go on.