Miss You

Denim dresses, sunshine, clothes hanging from a clothesline and I miss you. Dad and I are getting along just fine he loves to reminisce bout good 'ol times and I'm getting better at listening... I was a happy person who was occasionally sad but lately I've been slipping back. Trying to be strong like you'd want me to be, not a sad person who pretends to be happy. All the sacrifices you made everything that you gave up for me. I'm trying to be a life you'd be proud of, something to show for what you've done, a part of you that lives on but I'm stuck. I just miss you Mom. I keep the house clean like you used to. I run errands I used to run with you. I watch what Dad eats cuz he's all I've got. Then I get in my bed when I turn out the light and just cry and cry and cry. Tomorrow I'll get up do what needs to be done and maybe have some fun after all I'm 22. Then I'll drive home thinking of you and what I'd say to you if I could. Nothing ever comes to mind but... I miss you Mom ............... I do want to tell you the next time I see you that you'll be proud of me. I thought I'd lose myself when I lost you but I know who I am, even without you. You didn't have to worry. I'm gonna be strong when I see you as an adult. However right now I am not strong at all, at all, at all and I'd kill for your strength you forgot to give me when you left. Sometimes I still just can't believe you're gone. And all I do is miss, miss, miss you Mom.