Misery

Oh how I dwell in this misery It's inherited by a common curse, it runs through my veins like hot lava My brain is basked in it's full blown glory My teeth are worn,  chipped your snores haunt me in my sleep I wake up to a cold reality your cruelty dresses me ,my small frame  yet I look so elegant, tall in such shame My eyes are lined so well, big and wide, almond shaped, filled with anger, still I look so pretty and harmless My heart holds a harness full of old ashes It consumes my soul, leaving it halfway dead! I smile like this is a fairytale, I'm waiting on the happy ending to come...anytime now please! There's no happy ending to this, I taste the poisoned sweet apple I bite it and it's rotten midway, so bitter yet crisp It's hard to swallow and then I shoved  it down my closed up throat I choke but I survive, my body protects me, but my belly is bloated with pain This is something I can't explain or justify The whole world would judge me, "off with your head" I hear them scream,ungrateful foe One minute, one second , just one instant in my shoes, would blister the feet of the brave one that might take up the challenge It's hard to run, it's even worse if I walk, the pain is slow I crawl on my bony knees, they bleed from such abuse No one can hear my prayers, my screams are silent chants She glances at me with a puzzling look, like there's no answer to this My wings are being ripped out slowly, piece by piece day by day, all these years My body is sore, my limbs feel weak I wonder when this feeling will burn down? I feel like my heart is on fire Yet I feel numb from the cold splash of the icy water on my face, even in July I have been robbed, cheated out of happiness I carry a burden that doesn't belong to me It's heavy, rubbing slowly against my bare back I bleed inside, internally i'am damaged...thanks to you, my misery.