Mirage

"a mirage What's real anymore, i can't tell. Words spoken, now meaningless. All i held true now doubtful. Feels like being in a desert, hoping, praying for a mirage to relieve the thirst, the hopelessness of being stranded. Sun scorching my skin and yet i am cold. Look at me , i smile, i laugh, i joke and i seem whole, not a crack in the armor but on the inside i am shattered, broken. all i valued , all i trusted, nothing but a mirage. Living in the shadows of a ghost, never quite can compete with that. Sweet tasting lips how you made mine desire yours. You touched my very soul . Drained, lost, numb, nothing is right. foolish girl, thinking, aspiring to dream dreams that were never for you, could never be for you. Go away, hide yourself, you won't be missed for long. Easily forgotten i assure you. Life for me is but a mirage , a life i thought i saw in your eyes, a life that no longer exists, never existed but in the delusions of my mind. Oh how beautiful it was, and how lost i am now, so very lost. Let me close my eyes and live in my mirage, where i can be happy at last.