Mindfulness of Fear

Way up or way down, there's no in between My mind takes everything to the extreme Say you just don't get it, well neither do I I don't know when, how or why Educate me, medicate me, just let me be From my own demons I will never be free Am I crazy or just lazy, can't seem to get out of bed, bad thoughts making their way through my messed up head I hate this feeling but I'm not in control It taunts me, haunts me and eats at my soul Fear rushes in and takes charge of my thoughts My brain magnifies all of my faults I dwell on the evil that this world holds The good seems so small and the bad so bold The anxiety is overwhelming at times like this Lord if only I had one wish I'd wish for a switch to turn off my brain, to let me rest and remain somewhat sane Like an accomplished author I can write it all down but when I open my mouth it's a pathetic sound You never see this side of me I do my best to hide it you see Coming off tough comes with a price "Wow her mom died and she didn't even cry" Compassion for myself maybe I lack, but if it happens to you then I'll have your back For I will know just how you feel How hard it will be for you to deal I dwell on the pain that others endure I feel for those who are insecure Sometimes to the point that I feel I'll break Just knowing there's no difference that I can make I write these words as a form of relief, so maybe at night I can go to sleep Be kind to one another and do what you can Take the time to lift up your fellow man Kindness doesn't usually cost a thing Be generous with any comfort you can bring Live in the moment and you will find that things work out best when you are kind